Sunday 12th March 2017
Today I properly sat down and mapped out the development of my book. I think I have a good idea, but who knows. It doesn’t matter anyway – I’m not writing it for anyone else, I’m writing it for me.
Ok, that’s a lie. Every writer dreams that one day they will write a book and people will love it. Partly it is a need for validation thing and partly it is just that it feels so good to give other people joy, or entertainment.
But the most interesting thing I have learned has nothing to do with the book itself, it has to do with the act of writing it. This week, I worked on development of the two lead characters. I haven’t written fiction since I was about 11 years old. It doesn’t come as naturally to me as non-fiction. I don’t even read a lot of fiction! Yet, sitting down and really thinking about who these characters are, down to the details, like the music they listen to, had a strange effect on me. Working on a book gives me a feeling I haven’t felt before – a mix of excitement and calm.
Interestingly, I used to ask the future gods to bring me this mix of excitement and calm in my life. I thought I was naive to imagine it was possible – the two seem to juxtapose.
As it turns out, all I had to do was begin the journey of writing a book. The finished project is not the objective. It is the planning and the writing that has made me feel more free than I have felt in a very long time.
Much love, Katie xxx