Wednesday 1st March 2017

This morning is off to a better start than yesterday. I am wearing my new pants – I have avoided buying larger pants for a while now because it felt like giving in, but when the pain of sitting in the office in too-tight jeans got all too much, I caved and went shopping. Now I sit here wondering why I put myself through the discomfort for the last few months. Tight pants are like having someone in your ear all day saying “you’ve plumped up, haven’t you?” – bigger pants allow for denial. Once I start looking longingly at those jeggings on the infomercials, it will be time to face facts. Until then – new pants, hurrah!

I had a session with my leadership coach today. At one point, she asked me to list the traits I like about myself. Interestingly, I started listing my skills. When I had to think of the traits about myself I really liked, I had a block. For every nice trait I thought of, my brain threw up a vision of all the times I had not embodied such an attribute. My coach actually had to tell me the traits she thought were nice about me, so I wrote those down.

It was a good unveiling of just how hard on myself I really am, without even realising it. For every nice thought I have about myself, there is a counter-thought waiting in the wings. This means that as I move along the path, I am constantly slowing my own pace. For every step forward I take, I yank myself back. This self-awareness is incredibly valuable – I can learn all the business or leadership techniques in the world, but if I don’t watch out for the unhelpful thoughts, I will continue to halt my own momentum.

Much love, Katie x

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Hi, I’m Katie. I am a kiwi neuroscientist with a love for consuming and creating content. This site is where I share my personal thoughts and the thoughts of incredible minds from around the world. PhD in Neuroscience, University of Otago.


  1. Always great to recognise our own traits. We get buried in the details, at always tend to miss our own strengths. I like the approach when asked to list more than seven, as it prompt you to think deeper; beyond science of availability.

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