People are always so baffled to hear this, but I am introverted. You don’t get a PhD before 30 without having a streak in you that likes your own company.
There is a misconception that those who are introverted are shy. I wouldn’t consider myself shy – I get the usual social anxiety when walking into a group of people I don’t know. But I just have a bubbles and kick it off with the tried and true weather chat.
“God it’s been humid, don’t you think?!”
But for me, being introverted does not mean shying away from all social interactions. It means that my best ideas, my best writing, my best creativity and problem solving, comes after periods in quiet solitude.
While another person may feel more jazzed and energised after being in a brainstorming session, I feel worn out. But put me in a room on my own for a day and give me some space to really think, that is where my magic happens.
So why am I telling you this?
Firstly, if I make an observation about being a human, I like to fill you in, just in case it is the same for you. But secondly, it is an excuse as to why I have not been writing much of late. As I sat down last week and struggled to write a post about denim jackets, I knew something was off. Usually, I can’t stop the words from pouring out; however, writing this short post was an effort. I then realised, that I couldn’t identify the last time I enjoyed an entire day to myself to sit quietly. Now that I have finished writing my thesis (thank god), my life has changed. No longer can I spend a full day reading and writing in a quiet corner and call it ‘work’.
When life gets busy and loud, and life has been busy and loud recently, I lose my ability to write things that I am truly proud of. I can write any and every day about anything anybody wants me to write about. But writing well – that takes a clear and quiet mind.
I’m going to create a video about this shortly! About how I realised that what I thought was my biggest short-coming, was actually my greatest gift. It just had to be understood and nurtured.
Chat soon, Katie XXX