I have taken to having nightly baths. Firstly, because I’m living at home, but will be out flatting again soon and it is quite indulgent in terms of the monthly hot water bill. Secondly, because it is a great time to take stock.
I tend to be a human pinball. I sort of fling myself around the place, crashing in to all sorts of new beginnings. As a result, I have this crazy fast life. All too often I don’t spend any time really enjoying my own progression and wallowing in my stumbles.
So, each night I get in the bath, stare at the framed drawings of monarch butterflies on the wall in front of me and let my mind go wild. I give myself full permission to just dream about it all. This is such an amazing time for me and I want to soak it all up right now. Never before have I felt this happy and excited for all the upcoming adventures.
A friend messaged me the other day and said “next level blogging with that last post” “who is that babe!?” to which I replied “I don’t know!!! Who is that? She’s evolving.”
It’s not about the blogging itself, but what it represents. If you had asked me six months ago if I would be here, posing on the internet. I would have said no way. My confidence had some growing up to do.
There is an old proverb “Pride comes before the fall”. This statement is meant to serve as a warning to the cocky to stay humble. But a couple of months ago, whilst planning a complete career shift, I derived another meaning from this saying. Pride also means dignity, self-image and ego. And trying to heavily protect these things was going to be my downfall.
For it takes stepping back from dignity to put yourself out there and take the risk. To go into any new venture – be it a business, fashion blogging, love, a new haircut, or any other thing, with the knowledge that you may fall flat on your face (a fringe can block your vision).
And that if you do fall flat on your face, you’re now whole enough to just get in the bath, stare at the butterflies and wash it all off.
Much love XX
Photo: Katie Appleyard